Senioritice

Well... I realized that I'm really not very good at this whole blogging thing, but I'm hoping to get better at it. We'll see. ;)
Well, I'm back at college and I'm a Senior. *pausing for a moment to take that in* I still cannot believe how far I've come and how far I still have yet to go. I think of Phil. 3 where Paul's talking about pressing on towards the goal to win the prize. I have never given it much thought but consistently throughout my life the one thing that's kept me moving forward has been the ever-present, ever-glorious, prize set before my eyes. Not that I am perfect but that I press on in spite of myself knowing that nothing this world holds, holds a candle to the glory that shall be revealed!! This revelation of Christ keeps me pressing on... to Him. So, he although I've been through the fire... I have not been burned, and though I've been been through the storm.... I have stood firm and someday I will see Jesus face-to-face and I'll forever be in His presence worshiping Him who is worth forever and ever!! Amen!!

Pause to Ponder

Today has been one of those days. You know the ones I speak of, the ones that start impossibly early and drag right from the get go. The ones that no matter how hard and fast and furious you work... nothing seems to be getting accomplished. But then I paused for a moment and thought about what all this was for - the jobs, the obligations, the deadlines, and endless lists of chores to do. I then realized or should say was reawakened the the revelation that everything I do is setting up my life before my eyes. The administration I find myself wading in, the dictating, the working, the submitting, even the mistakes I make and am learning from... they all are preparing me for my life. I'm at present completing my senior internship for college and in every detail, vast and menial, is preparing me in some way, shape, or form for all that God has prepared for me to do. There are no words, for I cannot see what the future holds, but yet I look to the horizon and to the destiny God has for me and know that I will not be disappointed. There is much on my heart and present on my mind but I will not but pray these things into exsistence and have fun along the way! :) God bless and enjoy the ride!!

A Clean Slate

A clean slate.

A fresh start.

A new page.

And a new heart.

A new outlook,

On a new chance at life.

A fresh beginning,

All opens tonight.

I cannot express

This presence I feel

But hold it out

For the world to reveal.

For alone I chose my life to be

For I thought no one cared to care about me

Until just today did I first step out

And place myself in a vunerable state and shatter my world of doubt.

I chose to be a friend though no friend was found

And in the least likely of places I was not let down.

People have hurt me time and again

They've lied and they cheated and taunted my name.

I've been beaten and bruised and broken and bossed

I've been kicked and trampled and scarred me and mocked

But something inside was still crying for friends

I was sick of loneliness and self-defense

I need someone though I said I did not

And it took all I lost to see all I've got.

Thank you to all who I am so blessed to call friend!

~Ilene Rose